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  To my grandmother Elnora, who blessed me with a country girlhood

  CHAPTER ONE

  Red Velvet Miracle

  It wasn’t a mirage but a miracle. Two thick slices of red velvet cake sat on the table in front of us.

  Ellis fidgeted on the couch next to me and struggled to keep his hands in his lap. My little brother knew he shouldn’t make any sudden moves. No grabbing the fork on the linen napkin. No stuffing his face with cake. Not yet. For all we knew, it could be a trap.

  Our grandma—who we addressed as Mrs. Greene—only made red velvet cake on holidays or for the Heritage Festival. Today was just a regular Sunday. This meant our grandma had baked the cake for us, which didn’t make any sense. Mrs. Greene said I acted too much like Mama, and Ellis was a mannish hellion. I never thought in a million years I would get my grandma’s county-famous cake served on her good plates for no reason.

  Ellis and I sat frozen in Mrs. Greene’s parlor, afraid to even breathe. Her fancy clock above the fireplace chimed four times and broke the silence. Mrs. Greene still wore her church clothes: a pale blue dress cinched at the waist and a strand of pearls around her neck. She didn’t look like a grandma, which I guess was her intention. She was tall and slim with skin as bright as a sunrise, and her glossy black hair framed her face, which she had set in her trademark frown.

  “What you two afraid of? It’s cake not a snake. You can eat it.”

  Ellis jumped to the edge of the couch and grabbed his fork to take his first bite. Mrs. Greene didn’t have to tell him twice. I scooted closer to the table and reached for my fork but stopped when Aunt Gina came into the parlor.

  “I can’t get over how big you two are getting! Growing like little weeds,” she squealed.

  Even though Aunt Gina now lived in Chicago, she was born and raised in Warrenville, so her voice remained slow and sweet. Aunt Gina was like a fun county fair that came to town once a year. Mama called her a free spirit. Today she wore red slacks with a bright blue blouse and funky purple shoes. Her hair was a halo of bouncy brown curls.

  Several gold bracelets jangled on her arms as she pinched my brother’s cheeks. Ellis grinned at her and then shoved another forkful of cake into his mouth. Red velvet crumbs fell into his lap. My brother had no worries. As long as his belly was full, he was happy. It didn’t matter if he was eating in the lion’s den. I knew better. Something weird was going on, and I had questions.

  This morning Mama had told us we needed to come over to say good-bye to Aunt Gina and my cousin Janie. They visited every summer but never stayed long. A few days at most. This year wasn’t any different. During every visit, Janie would constantly talk about Chicago. Bragging about the tall buildings and the bright lights. She called me backward country, but I didn’t care. Who wanted to live in a place with so much concrete and not a stitch of grass? Janie claimed Chicago had plenty of grass, but that didn’t matter to me. With all those city lights, I knew it would never get truly dark. I felt sorry for Janie. Nothing was more beautiful than a night sky so full of stars, you never felt alone.

  Mama came out of the hall bathroom and stepped into the parlor. Her hair had puffed out from the humidity. Last night after she had flat-ironed it, she let me brush it in long strokes. I loved how some of her brown strands turned red in the sun. I wished I had Mama’s dark skin, but I inherited Daddy’s light tone, which got Mrs. Greene’s approval. Ellis had Mama’s deep complexion, but at least I had her brown-red hair.

  In the parlor, Mrs. Greene, Aunt Gina, and Mama exchanged long and meaningful glances. Secret grown folks language. I couldn’t tell if it was good or bad news.

  “What’s going on?” I finally asked.

  Mama sat on the couch next to me. “Your aunt is taking a trip out west.”

  “You’re not going back to Chicago?” I asked.

  “No, pumpkin!” Aunt Gina was giddy with excitement. “I’m headed to California to do some more commercials.”

  “The ones where you play the fake dentist?” Ellis asked through his jam-packed-with-cake mouth.

  Aunt Gina had filmed several commercials for Fresh Now! toothpaste. She played a dentist in a white coat who smiled too much and talked about tartar control and gingivitis. We even saw a couple of her commercials play down here on local TV. But Ellis was right—she wasn’t a dentist. In the real world, she was a nurse.

  “Yes, I’ll be doing more of those but also some screen tests, too,” Aunt Gina said.

  “What’s a screen test?” I asked.

  “A bunch of mess,” Mrs. Greene said. “Gina, you know nothing good is going to happen out there in Hollywood. You got too many stars in your eyes.”

  “I think it’s great.” Mama paused and touched my knee. “A screen test is like an audition for actors and actresses.”

  “You know California is where all the earthquakes happen,” Ellis said.

  Aunt Gina furrowed her brow. “That’s true, but there haven’t been any of those in a while.”

  “It only takes a big one to push everything into the ocean.” Ellis wiped his mouth, leaving a trail of frosting across his cheek. “I once saw this movie where buildings crashed and people were out in the streets screaming—”

  “Ellis,” Mama interrupted. “Be quiet.”

  “Yes, ma’am.” My brother went back to devouring his cake.

  “Is Janie excited?” I asked.

  Aunt Gina pulled a piece of imaginary lint from her pants, and her bracelets clinked together. She wouldn’t look at me.

  Mama cleared her throat. “Janie is going to stay here in Warrenville.”

  “Here at Mrs. Greene’s house?” I asked.

  “No,” Mama said. “Janie will be staying with us.”

  “You know I still don’t like this, Delilah,” Mrs. Greene said. “These children need supervision. Especially Janie. Maybe if you stayed home instead of hemmed up at the Fairfield County courthouse, you could raise these children properly.”

  Mama took a deep breath. I knew she was counting to three in her head. Sometimes she did this before speaking to Mrs. Greene.

  “Sarah is quite capable of taking care of things while I’m at work,” she said.

  This summer Mama had agreed to put me in charge and let me and Ellis stay at home by ourselves. I was tired of staying at Mrs. Greene’s house. I would be turning thirteen at the end of September. I was mature and responsible. If my hair caught on fire or if Ellis broke a leg, I could get help from Mrs. Taylor, who lived next door. Our neighbor mostly stayed inside, watching game shows or her favorite housewives on reality TV. Mama probably knew this, but she agreed to let us stay home anyway, and it had been an easy summer so far. Nothing bad had happened, but that could all change if Janie stayed with us. Janie liked to get into trouble.

  Mrs. Greene said an idle mind is the devil’s workshop, and Janie would have a lot of free time. It didn’t help she loved using her five-finger discount to take what she wanted. Janie carried what she called a purse, but it was just a pink backpack full of her snoop prizes. Today at church I saw her stash away an MLK church fan. If Mrs. Greene found out that her citified granddaughter had stolen an image of Martin Luther King Jr. from the Lord’s house, she would put a switch to Janie’s legs.

  “How long is Janie going to stay with us?” I asked.

  “Just for two weeks,” Mama said. “Until your aunt wraps up her commercials and screen tests.”

  Maybe I could make this work, and my summer wouldn’t be totally ruined after all. Plenty of time to recover from this ordeal. All I had to do was keep my cousin out of trouble.

  “Okay. It’ll be fun, Mama,” I lied.

  Mrs. Greene sucked her teeth but remained silent. Even she knew raising a child was a group activity
in Warrenville. Grown folks took action first and asked questions later. Our town was small enough for word to travel fast about any trouble, but I knew there wouldn’t be any. There hadn’t been any kind of trouble in our town in a long time. I wasn’t going to let Janie mess that up.

  “Great!” Aunt Gina clapped her hands in celebration. “Janie is so looking forward to this.”

  “Where is she anyway?” Ellis finally finished his cake. His plate was spotless, as if he had licked it clean.

  “Good question,” Mrs. Greene said. “Sarah, go find that meddling girl. She’s been too quiet.”

  CHAPTER TWO

  Celebrity Daughter

  I left the parlor and went upstairs to find Janie. I didn’t come up here much because Mrs. Greene didn’t like us rambling around without her.

  When Ellis and I had spent our summers here, we were usually outside in the hot sun. Mrs. Greene believed the outdoors was where children belonged. She would slather us with sunscreen and make us wear hats. Heaven forbid we got a darker shade of brown. But playing in her yard and doing boring adult chores were totally different things. We did the latter. We planted marigolds and pulled up weeds. We made sure all the ferns on the front porch were properly watered. We spent most of our time digging in Mrs. Greene’s garden so she could plant rows of cucumbers, melons, and squash. When she did let us inside the house, she left us on the screened back porch shelling peas or shucking corn. Other days I was on my hands and knees cleaning baseboards while Ellis wiped lemon oil on the wood furniture. And on the hottest summer days, when even she knew it was child abuse for us to be outside, we were at Mrs. Greene’s beck and call, keeping her glass full of ice water.

  This year I had finally escaped summer-work boot camp and now needed to make sure Janie’s sticky fingers wouldn’t put my freedom in jeopardy. I didn’t want to be back in Mrs. Greene’s clutches. Not even for a thousand red velvet cakes.

  I peeked in Daddy’s old room. Mrs. Greene had covered his bed in one of her patchwork quilts. Posters of Michael Jordan hung on the walls, and basketball trophies lined his dresser. The room was like a postcard from the past. I wondered why my grandma hadn’t changed anything now that Daddy had his own house. Maybe she hoped he would leave Mama and come back home one day.

  I looked into Aunt Gina’s room, where Janie had been sleeping, but she wasn’t there. Farther down the hallway, I stopped at Mrs. Greene’s closed door. I turned the knob but found it locked as usual. My grandma always locked her bedroom and carried the key in her bra.

  As I walked down the hall to check the bathroom, I noticed the attic door was ajar. I stood in front of it and hesitated. Was Janie up in the attic? Mrs. Greene wouldn’t be happy if she found out.

  I cautiously opened the door and looked up the dark stairs. The smell of mothballs and old furniture filled the air. Dust and cobwebs had settled into the cracks and crevices. A creepy feeling traveled up my spine. I hated dark places. When my eyes adjusted, I could see weak light coming from the attic windows.

  “Janie, are you up there?” I whispered.

  She didn’t respond. I searched for a light, but I couldn’t find one. Out of the corner of my eye, a shadow appeared at the top of the steps. I moved backward, and a shiver rippled through my body.

  “Janie? Is that you?” I asked, a little louder this time.

  The shadow didn’t answer. My heart sped up. “You know you’re not supposed to be up there.” I didn’t want to sound frightened, but I couldn’t stop my voice from wavering.

  The shadow whooshed down the attic stairs to meet me. Too fast for me to even run. Janie appeared in the dusky light, and I took a deep breath. I was mad at myself for being so scared. My cousin smirked.

  “What were you doing up there?” I asked.

  “Nothing.” She had her pink backpack in her hands. The wooden handle of the MLK church fan poked out.

  “Did you take something?”

  “Nope.” She zipped up her backpack. “I was just looking around. Mrs. Greene’s got a lot of junk up there.”

  “I know you’re lying. You were up there meddling.” I winced as I used my grandma’s words.

  “Oh, so you’re a lie detector now?” Janie brushed past me and went into Aunt Gina’s room.

  “Everybody is waiting for you downstairs.”

  She grabbed her suitcase from the end of the bed and began tossing in all of her stuff. Janie’s box braids covered her face like a rope curtain, and her white halter top glowed against her bronze skin.

  I scratched at the itchy cotton of my T-shirt. Mama wouldn’t let me wear halter tops because my bra straps would show. She made me start wearing training bras this summer. Right before Memorial Day, we went to a fancy dress shop in Alton, where she forced me into a fitting room.

  “How does it feel, honey?” Mama asked.

  I frowned at her in the mirror.

  “Don’t pout, Sarah. Growing ladies need support. From this day forward, you’re going to eat and sleep wearing a bra. You’ll thank me later.”

  Janie had enough halter tops to fill each slot of the rainbow. I watched as she folded shorts, socks, and underwear. I didn’t see any bras. Janie was flat chested, so she didn’t have to go through my daily drama.

  “Why don’t you want to stay here?” I asked.

  Janie swooped her braids over her shoulder. “Are you kidding me? Mrs. Greene is too crazy. And I’m sure not trying to be somebody’s maid. No thank you.”

  “Are you happy about your mama going to California?”

  “Of course.” Janie collected her lotion and nail polish off the dresser. “This is just the beginning. It’s only a matter of time before I become a celebrity daughter.”

  “Does this mean y’all are moving?” I asked. “What about all your stuff in Chicago?”

  The thought of moving my things to another place made me cringe. I would have to pack up my books. All of them. Mama would then see how many I actually had and make me donate them to the Warrenville public library. How awful.

  “Mom is taking care of all those details.” Janie snapped her suitcase shut. “Why are you asking all these nosy questions anyway?”

  “I’m just curious.”

  Daddy told me curiosity was an important trait of a scientist. Someday I was going to be an astrobiologist. I would find life on other planets, so I needed to have an inquiring mind. Questions were necessary. Janie just didn’t want to give me any answers.

  I picked up Janie’s suitcase off the bed. “I can carry this downstairs for you.”

  Janie snatched it from me. “Don’t touch my stuff.”

  “Don’t be a spoiled brat,” I shot back.

  “Don’t be a bossy nag.” Janie turned away from me, and her braids smacked me in the face.

  My cousin was only a year younger than me. Instead of acting her carbon age of eleven years, she could have passed for a toddler as she stormed out of the room.

  I counted to three. Then to seven. It wasn’t until I got to ten when the angry words melted on my tongue. Mama would have been so proud.

  • • •

  Everyone was waiting for us in the parlor. Daddy had just returned from putting gas in the SUV, because traveling to the Atlanta airport required a full tank. Janie was standing by the door with her face scrunched up like she’d smelled a rotten egg.

  “I’m going to take the kids to the house.” Mama kissed Daddy on the cheek. “I’ll see you when you get back tonight.”

  Aunt Gina grabbed Janie into a tight hug. “You sure you don’t want to ride with me and Uncle Robert to the airport? Send your mama off on her big California adventure?”

  “Can’t I just go with you?” she asked.

  “It’s only for two weeks. They’ll go by so fast! Oh! I almost forgot. I got you a surprise.” Aunt Gina pulled out a phone from her pocket.

  Janie grabbed the phone and squealed. “This is for me?!”

  “Now, don’t get too excited with the call minutes,” Aunt Gi
na said. “It’s prepaid, so no calling up all of your friends in Chicago. This is only for you to call me. Whenever you want. Aunt Delilah can help you with the time difference.”

  Ellis moved from behind Mama and stared at Janie’s new phone. “Can I get one of those?”

  “No,” Mama replied.

  Aunt Gina hugged Janie again. “I’m going to miss you so much!”

  Janie pulled away. “I could help you practice your lines, you know. It’s not fair you’re leaving me here in the boondocks. You know how much I hate it here.”

  “Warrenville isn’t so bad,” Aunt Gina said. “You’ll get to know your cousins better and have so many new adventures.”

  “I doubt it.” Janie crossed her arms and frowned.

  “Okay, everyone!” Mama said a little too loud and bright. “Time for Aunt Gina to hit the road.”

  We all congregated on the porch. Aunt Gina hugged and kissed Mrs. Greene. Despite my grandma’s misgivings, she pushed a huge plastic bin of red velvet cake slices into Aunt Gina’s arms. When she got into Daddy’s SUV, Aunt Gina waved wildly at Janie, but my cousin ignored her; instead she climbed into the backseat of Mama’s car and stared out the window in the opposite direction.

  While Mama put Janie’s suitcase in the trunk, I got in the front passenger seat. When I turned around, Janie’s brave face was crumbling. Little tears formed at the corners of her eyes, and her lips had started to quiver. So I acted how I would want someone to do for me if I was about to cry. I turned away and pretended like I hadn’t seen anything at all.

  Janie sniffled, but she didn’t speak. By the time Ellis and Mama had gotten in the car, Janie’s eyes were dry. Her brave mask restored.

  “Okay, everyone ready to go?” Mama asked.

  Ellis clicked his seat belt. “Let’s escape while we still can!”

  Janie jutted out her lower lip and remained silent.

  Mama turned to me. “You ready?”

  “Let’s go home, Mama,” I said confidently.

  CHAPTER THREE